I'm such a huge procrastinator so this is partially my fault but all of my projects and huge tests and shit have been due in the past two weeks because spring break is coming up and they're trying to finish stuff up I guess but holy shit I'm dying. I haven't really slept for two days because I've stayed up doing work all night, and I'm not even doing that well on the things I finally get in. I couldn't figure out my math test yesterday, for example, because I didn't get enough sleep. It was simple enough but I couldn't figure out the fucking questions, they just wouldn't come out right. And so last night I spent all night working on my theology presentation that was first thing this morning and literally was able to sleep for 20 fucking minutes. And when we got to class the teacher forgot! I mean I get more time to work on it now but I wanted all my fucking work to be over after this week. I want to be able to relax, but that's not looking like an option. I feel like when I go camping with friends this weekend I'm going to be worrying about school work all weekend. I guess I'll have Sunday to do it but everyone keeps piling on more shit to do today! And no, I'm not one of those people that don't do anything but study and shit but I'm turning into that. I feel like some portion of every day should include something that does not have anything to do with school, right? Right? Idk I think it's the sleep deprivation but I'm really freaking out now I'm pretty much crying right in the middle of the hallway but I'm trying to hide it and I'm really hoping this rant will help thanks for reading if you got this far, by the way. Also my friends that I want to talk to that are great at distracting me and cheering me up aren't available at the moment so that's not helping. One more thing, Monday is my birthday. I was forced to reschedule a genetics test for that day after school and I don't understand it at all, plus I'm getting all kinds of other shit due that day. I just feel like it's gonna be a shitty birthday anyway because it's the first one since my parents split and I'll be at my mom's house despite the fact that I kinda hate her and I've been meaning to tell her that I want to just live at my dad's but idk how to bring up something like that and also people kinda forgot about it this year and it's on a fucking Monday so that's always a bad day and idk I'm so stressed (and I don't fucking get stressed, it is just not part of my personality to get stressed. About anything. Ever. At all. Ever.) so I'm kinda snapping especially since I have no sleep and I've been typing for like 5 minutes straight now so I'm going to stop taking up pixels on your screen thanks for reading if you got this far.
