Ugh. Im so fed up. I may aswell give up.

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Ugh. Im so fed up. I may aswell give up.

Okay so my bastard english teacher (who is also the headmaster...) and he is useless as a teacher...
We've been put in groups for a debate... and my group is against assisted suicide... I just can't be against it.. I am fully for it.. i've told him the truth that there are personal reasons, and he couldn't care less.. so I said screw it, id rather get a shitty grade, than go against my morals, i'm not giving in that easily.. Some of you may think im being very stupid, and tell me if you think so...
Also my drama group seem to like taking any anger or greivinces they have out on me, for example if everyone else has taken a break and decided to text their friends, as soon as my phone came out to text my grandmar, they all yelled at me to stop fucking about, and get on with it... this is just one example in about 40. (im not being overdramatic..) and we have to wear costumes and so I was saying what mine would be (im meant to be satan) and I was saying i'd wear a cloak.... so Ryan started having a go at me, saying ''oh thats just stupid'', and ''you won't be able to move properly'' because you really need to move loads when you're standing for 50% of the time and sitting on a chair the rest, im just so so fed up with drama now, they all tell me im doing it wrong, noone listens to my suggestions what-so-ever.
We have someone thats been away since Christmas, they were on holiday, and she was supposed to be in our group... but dispite my suggestions on how she could be in it, I was yet again ignored. Then suddenly when they all get pissed off with me (because I ''fuck about too much'') they tell me they dont want me in their group, so said they'd get Tace (who was on holiday) to do my bit..and theyd get rid of me, which would mean id get a worse grade, but I couldn't care less now. I'm so fed up of it.. so yeah I asked my drama teacher if I could do monolouge instead, as they seem to wanna do it without me so they may aswell, but my teacher says she'll have a word with them.. But she just says its what happens if shes not there, but it happens when she is there too.. she just ignores it and lets them continue having a go at me..
I'ev been going in for drama recently regardless of how ill i've been.. (I've got Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.. and so I get ill realy easily), so i've gone above and beyond, and ive had enough, my drama teacher will as she always does agree with them. my english teacher is a useless motherfucker. and i've had enough of it ALL.
My art book is either wherever mr stonhill put it (head of art, music and drama) he was looking at it cause my teacher says my work it D worthy... but I talked to annabella who got a D and she says mine is alot better (her words).. but if mr Stonhill hasn't got it, i'm screwed cause the hand in deadline is friday...
Everythings so hard. I just want to give up. Fail everything, it really is all too much.
I know right now I sound like all I ever so is complain, but someone tell me, please am I just being pathetic, or am I right.. Please help? Thanks if you do help....