We don't save lives. We save the galaxy.
just thinking on to much things...
Do you ever feel like you just want to shut down your brain and stop thinking on the millions things you're thinking on?
I often feel that way when I can't fall asleep in the evening... (I'm not trying to sleep now)
and now I'm just thinking on a lot of different things, school (should be studying), my economy (pretty broke at the moment) and then all of the relations I have to different people, it's hard =/
and then yesterday I manage to confuse myself.... to explain the story, I have depression, and I used to cut myself but stopped a year ago, but still feel like I want to when I'm really sad and depressed. So yesterday I was on my way home from my cousin (my best friend) and I wasn't really happy, but nothing near really depressed, just kind of somewhere in between, and I just felt the urge to cut myself =/ and it made me confused cause like I said, I only felt it before when I was really depressed =/
no need to worry, I didn't do it, but it made me confused and kind of sad to get that feeling, cause I just feels like theres something wrong with me =/ which it's tecnically is, but hope you know what I mean...
anyway, just wanted to get it out of my head.
take care everyone!
xo
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See and my mom says I have no manners! ha, but good just listen to MCR and you'll feel better just knowing alll the power they have, and wat thay've done to you!
it's not like I want to either..... and I haven't done it in a year, but sometimes I just get the feeling that I should do it, and I don't know why, but so far I managed to fight it! And yeah, MCR helps a lot =)
xo
MCR saved me aswell, and they still do, and even if I feel much better than a year ago, sometimes it just feels really hard to keep on fighting, but now I have some more people to help me stay on track, my psychologist, two new great friends, and of course, everyone on here =)
and yeah, it helped, kind of help just to now that smeone cares and you're not alone =)
so thanks for commenting =)
xo
Yesh, sometimes I do.
Sometimes I think to myself, why was I even put here, I didn't ASK to be put in the situation I'm in.
I was like you, I was depressed and I cut myself too. And it really sucked because I got confused too.
I was confused because I knew cutting myself didn't really help me at ALL.
It didn't make me feel better, but worse because knowing I was depressed wasn't really the best thing ever.
I heard MCR and ofcourse, they saved my life, kinda like pulling me outta a ditch or something.
I don't really know why and how, but it did.
I love MCR alot now, especially because my life has changed way to the best.
Even to this day, after, what 2 years or so?
Anyways, anytime something really good happens, I think to myself, If it weren't for MCR, I wouldn't know or see this.
And then I go on swooning about how hot they are;)
So I hope this helped you, I don't really know how it will alot, LOL, but atleast smile:)
WOW^ ^ long-ass post, eh?
Have a good day.
Would anyone want you to cut yourself? NO! I used to also but I've stopped because of...........MCR!