What do I do?

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What do I do?

So Im at a confuzing time in life. Im stressed and confused and feeling kinda depressed. I dont know what to do with my life. First problem thats been keeping me up at night is the fact that the girl I always supported, loved, and was there for, my little sister (not by blood) never talks to me anymore, it tears me apart. Then another person who iv helped with all there problems suddenly is this girly girl liking all these boybands and singers i hate and being kinda mean and it hurts alot. Then theres the fact i can not stand going to school anymore. people constantly pick on me, call me names, hjate on me for no reason. Then the fact that N. ditched me because i had depression issues and just because of that she said it was "annoying" and left me. And now all of the sudden she is dressing like me, listening to my type of music wich for the longest tim shes hated. And then months ago i asked R. to the used concert and she priomised yes until N asked her and now shes not going at all. and R claims im one of her best friends but she always hangs with N and she gets pissed at me for nothing. plus i find out this whole year shes going out with oe person the whole time but while dating that person shes dating tons of guys too. So i dont know if i should be her friend or not after all shes dragged me through. then al my other "friends" have been ignoring me cause N is telling them all these lies about me. So everyday at school is a living hell. Then im worried constantly that Keith is just gonna push me away one day. That im going to be alone more then i already am. Iv just had a hard time lately. *cries* Im starting to give up. Plus no one even bothers to read my story.
Being alone sucks.
Save me,
Angela.