i start with this...alot of people these days are trying to be something their not. Their going after something they dont even know at all until they saw it on a pretty girl as she was walking down a street. and it SICKENS me! it really does. Because your going to go through your whole life not even knowing who YOU are. and you never going to be happy...
I left off saying now im going to break into encouragement. to try to help you and make you realize how loved and beautiful you truely fucking are. And how not being happy with yourself is fucking BULLSHIT! Because even though you think "oh she has never met me how does she know?" trust me
i fucking know
i have been on here long enough to realize how wonderful and creative you fucking are. the reason im cussing so much is because m upset. upset because people are throwing their lives away. killing themselves because they think "them" is fucking awful. Because i log on here everyday and see how sad and depressed, and unhappy my killjoys are.
and for what reason?
because no one cares about you? im fucking here message me when ever you like. hell ill even give you my cell number so you can text me when ever you need to. your loved. your cared about.
because your life is shit? trust me. you might think this is shit. but no one EVER said that your life wasn't going to turn out just fine. look at the My Chem guys. their lives in little New Jersey were shit. just complete shit. Gerard was doing drugs, drinking to much, severely depressed, and about to kill himself thinking that he was going to die alone and no one REALLY loved him. and fucking look at him now.
in a life changing band loved by millions has a wife and a kid clean and sober and not depressed, no, over joyed.
living proof that life will get better. and that is NOT BULLSHIT! its really fucking not. i would roll my eyes at that to. but my lovely killjoys, if MCR saved your life, then why are you self harming? Gerard screams and encourages for NONE of you to result to violence. and every day there is a self harm post.
and it breaks my fucking heart.
someone is there for you to talk to TRUST me. i know im a complete stranger but think about it. We really aren't. we both love MCR, and has saved our lives and been through the same thing. Self harm, suicide, depression, guilt , anger, sadness, loneliness, and hurt. But I'm a fully recovering victim of depression. and have stopped cutting and trying to commit suicide.
SO IT IS POSSIBLE!
im not shitting you. So when ever you feel like the absolute shit of the earth message me friend me i am here just for you!
keep on not giving a fuck...until next time..
keep on fucking running...and never stop
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Part 5 will be coming soon i hope this helped a little(:
