ok. so...i know people are saying all these depressing blogs are tearing apart the MCRmy. that its fakes trying to get attention. im not doing that. this is a serious cry for help. ive reached my breaking point.
i feel like everythings wrong. and i feel so alone. and like no one loves me. even though some people are saying how much they love me. my brain is saying "their lying. no ones ever loved you. whenever people say that. they leave you. your still alone and unloved."
i feel like theres all these people in the world. and im all by myself in the corner of the world. currled up in a ball crying in a dark dark place.
im getting bullied the worst i have in years. people are telling me "go kill yourself already" no one REALLY loves you. " if anybody says they love and that you their friends, their lying. they want you to die to. and if they ever met you in person. they would really wish you were dead." and this ones whats making me want to kill myself..soon.-
"that 'best friend' of yours christopher. hes never really met you in real life. he only knows the computer you. when he says "i love you" its so much easier to type then to actually feel. i could so easily type i love you to you and not mean a word. if he ever meets you in real life, he'll want you dead to. you dont belong in this earth. you were a mistake. a sad sad mistake. your probably just weighing him down. your probably annoying the fuck out him. and he really just wants you to shut up. i know it for a fact. god you are such a pathetic troll. oh, and next time you cut, go a little deeper, hopefully you'll hit a vein!"
now....i really hope i hit a vein.
