I'll Never Let Them Hurt You, I Promise chapter 1

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I'll Never Let Them Hurt You, I Promise chapter 1

I look over to my right. His black hair greasy from not taking a shower for 3 weeks. We don't mind, we're used to it. I haven't taken a shower in weeks either. When your on tour, you stop noticing. But we know we all smell of complete shit. We can tell by the looks on people faces.
"You got the old spice?" Gerard questions to me.
"Oh yeah, here" I toss him it from across the room. He catches it with a little but of a stumble. He's always been a bit of a akward guy, its one of the things i love about him.
He lifts up his arms and puts on the Old Spice. I really dout its going to help. We put it on everyday, and still, people scrunched their faces.
Light was shining through one of the tour bus windows, and perfectly out lining his body. I couldn't know how i got so lucky.
I reached back and felt my own black hair, of course, slick and greasy. My skin was oily and i still had makeup on from a show the night before..and 3 nights before that. My whole body was covered in revenge makeup, cuts, bruises, and scars. You can thank stage diving..and Frank for that one. I had a stained white tank top on and ripped of black jeans with old beat up converses. My usual out fit for tour. I hadn't worn anything different for weeks now.
And yet, Gerard still called me beautiful when we woke up. We tried sharing a bunk after the show..but i woke up on the floor. Guess they are to small.
"What you starin' at?" Gerard smiled walked over and gave me a quick but sweet kiss on the lips.
"Nothin' pretty" i winked at him and gave him a kiss back. Despite are cruel jokes, this was our way of being in love.
He had dark circles under his eyes from the eye liner from last nights concert he never took off. And more pit stains close to his arms. i didn't care, because i know i did too.
For a short tome we just looked at eachother smiling our stupid smile. Then i heard,
"Hey Rider! Save it for the stage, the fans like that!"
"Shut up Frank!" i shouted in a cheerful way. Frank giggled and ran back out side the bus door.
Frank had to be my best friend. I've known him since i was 7, and we share all our secrets. I never had a girl as a close friend, or any girl friends at all, i was always more boyish and puck then the others. And me and Frank just clicked.
Our album "Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge" was released almost 9 months ago. And our lives picked up fast. But it hasn't been easy for Gerard.
Gerard has always struggled with alcohol, i knew that since i first met him. And i was aware he was into drugs. I've always tried to talk him out of it, but he refuses. I noticed he's been getting worse lately. Nonstop drinking and smoking, and i think he's using illegal drugs behind my back. Before he drinks, he seems distant and depressed. But then after a few beers, he's just out there and doesn't care. I didn't mind at first, i drink more then i probably should to. But then, I found Gerard while we were taking a break from driving, earlier on in the tour. And he had a knife in his hands and a pill bottle next to him. When i asked him how many beers he had, he said 12.
Him kissing me again snapped me out of my thoughts.
"You okay?" he asked concerned.
"Uh..." no i wasn't fine. "Yeah, just thinking about stuff."
"Like...how tonight we're in LA! Brian said we shouldn't drink so much this time, but hey! It's fucking LA! right?"
i just looked at him scared that he was covering up something more deep.
"Man, I love you" he said and kissed me on the four head.
"Love you too..so much." I had to talk to him about his depression sooner or later. He's been hiding it from the guys, "Hey, um..about the whole drinking thing I..uh..I just-" I was cut off by the sound of foot steps then,
"Mikey Way!!!" Gerard yelled and ran over to his brother. Mikey was holding a six pack of Budweiser, and had a Bud Light in his hand. I could tell he was already drunk.
"Let's get fucked up!" Mikey yelled as Gerard out an arm around his younger brother and they leaned against each other out the door.
If this is just them now, how are the gonna be tonight.
I had no fucking idea what was coming.
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