I hate my "friends"

Have you ever been in a group of people and wonder if you left anyone would notice? That's what everyday is like for me. I have no real friends in my life (except my best friend who ive known from birth but we hardly ever see eachother now). All of my "friends" have the potential to stab me in the back at any given moment. They judge me no matter i do. According to them I cut myself for attention (another reason why I don't trust my friends - they tell people your secrets), I'm boring, I'm an "emo", I'm denying God by listening to rock music, I listen to death songs, I'm ugly, I make them sick when they look at me and I'm going to commit suicide. These are people who class themselves as my "friend". I can't get out of it because I'll be on my own again and my teachers will send me to counselling. Or they'll tell a teacher or my parents about me in which case I will get pulled out of my school and sent to a shit-hole where I will get beaten up for being different (aka not a plastic barbie). Some of them always say I'm lyin. One of them thinks I don't even haea cousin. That I made her and her boyfriend up. It ridiculous.
Home isn't much better. My parents are constantly telling me that if I don't start acting more like my brother (this is the loser who cried over a B and one detention) then I'll groww up to be a fat single mother living in a council estate working in a biscuit factory. There's nothing wrong with that, it's just i want to believe that I have a chance at future. They tell me that I need to sort myself out, grow up and start acting like a "normal teenager "(once again, a plastic barbie). I don't want to come home and be slapped by my dad for telling him to move (it's not respectful). I don't want teachers to take the piss outta me all the time, I don't want them to stick their nose in my life and I don't want to live like this anymore.

"Hannah, you don't need to pull down your sleeves we know you want the attention"
"Shut up!"
"Get out of my face"
"Self harmers are attention seekers"
"Fatty"
"bitch"
"loser"
"emo"
"Are you an emo?"
"Do you slit your wrists"
"Go away sad emo girl,"
"Liar. We don't actually belive you. We only humor you,"
"Hannah's mum is fat, though,"
"Stop annoying me!"

My only esape is music and I've even gone back to cuttin myself. It's that bad.

I know there are a lot of people worse off than me but I just wanted to get this out.