FAH. "._. Sooo... I'm going through that one phase where I'm super curious about my sexuality, okay?
Stay with me. It might get complicated.
Last year, my friends started getting into lesbian relationships. I mean, like, ALL of my friends. The few that I had, anyways. So, I started to feel left out. And I started to see girls in TOTALLY different ways. Like, sexually and junk. Ragh.
And lately, I've been less & less interested in guys.. I mean sure, I'll know if I pass an attractive dude, but I don't get all... Swoony... I dunno.
SOANYWAYS, I've got this crush on my friend, and I've already told her how I feel! A long, long time ago, actually.. Yeah. She didn't reject my feelings, she just didn't.. Encourage them. Which I totally understand! I wouldn't be surprised if she actually rejected me because of my feelings! She didn't then, which I was grateful for..
But now I think it's finally starting to get to her.
She's been talking to me less and less, dissing me on purpose... ">.< And she's one of my absolute closest friends. I just enjoy being near her.
I think I'm just afraid of loosing her...
*sigh* "^-^ But, y'know. Keep Calm and Be a Fabulous Killjoy. I'll keep looking up and hope that things will only get better.
Thank you for listening.
So long and good night~ Follow_The_Ashes
