Romy's Chemical Romance

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Romy's Chemical Romance

I've been listening to My Chemical Romance since 5th grade.
I won't go on and on about my childhood, about how my dad treated me phsycilly horrible and people around me didn't bother to look my way. I thought it'd end when I'll go to 7th grade, but it just became worse. Girls I used to be friends with turned their back to me and called me fat, whore, slut. Cursed the day I was born. I thought ignoring them would be the best for me, to ignore their words and looks and "move on", well, not that happy "move on" with smile upon my face. For years I've been hurting my self, cursing my self, avoiding the mirrors everywhere and listen to My Chemical Romance. My Chemical Romance made me feel different, unique, that I can find my own path and way to set up things in my life. I'm 16 years old now, 2 months ago their last action was to stalk me to schoo's yard, surround me with words and curses. I decided to stand up and walk away and they grabbed my hand, hitted me and pulled hard my hair. Cursed my hair and said "Maybe we shall cut it since it's so ugly and messy!" I just started to shout at them, I pulled my self hard and the scissors fell and hurted my right shoulder. They took my drawings diary(Sort kind of diary I wrote on since 5th grade). They took it and burned it. Tore it apart and burned all of it, and threw it away. I just stood there shocked. This diary was my whole life, I never felt too lonely with this diary. My mom doesn't know anything about this kind of bullying, It's not like she's treating me better than them. I tried to talk about these kind of things with my best friend, but I never seem to tell him what's on my mind. I feel like he doesn't care anymore, I feel lonely and melancholic. I have no one to talk to and no one tries. I tried to move on with this kind of life by giving part of me to someone else, to tell him how I feel and he'll tell me about his life. No matter where I went to, My Chemical Romance's songs has been there for me, I could literally say they saved my life too many times. I feel like I've ruined everything, like I still am ruining. My relationship with my best-friend, I made my mom hate my guts, curse me for giving birth to me, hit me. I can't hold my tears for too long, I hide and run away. My life isn't horrible, I guess it's this kind of teenager-period. Thanks to My Chemical Romance I've decided to deal with these kind of things with a smile. Whenever my best friend hurt me with his own words, and doesn't care to step on my feelings first, I open the door and take My Chemical Romance with me. I run so fast and cry until I calm myself down.
I think I want to start a new period in my life. I want to tell him how I need him, how everything around me falls down, how I shout for help. I want to be there for him as well. I believe we can find the way.
Black Parade, Three Cheers, B-Sides, Danger days.
Everything. Thank you.
I feel like I must go right now, cry for help, shout my heart out for him and hope for anything.
But I won't do it anymore. It's time to do actions than hoping for something to change.
I can find my way!