I AM BACK.

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I AM BACK.

Well Hello!
I have not been on here for almost two years, boy does time fly. Things have changed a lot for me, some things good, some thing not so much. But I will just give you a quick catch up.
I finished college- that was in 2011 so that seems a million miles away now- but I made what I truly believe to be lifelong friends there and we see each other too much really. I love them.
I got into University! Me, the girl who dropped out of school and was told she would amount to nothing, got into University. Bloody hell, I still cannot quite believe it. I start this September and will be studying Film! It also means I get to move to London which is really exciting (I only live about a 45 minute train journey from there anyway, but living in London will still be amazing!)
I am an aunt, to two of the greatest kids you will ever meet. Logan and Phoebe are just perfect and they have me wrapped around their little fingers!
Now for the not so good.
My nan is sick, she has Dementia. It is hard, seeing her decline so rapidly. She is a shadow of her former self. That's the thing about this illness, it takes everything you are and leaves emptiness in it's place. I don't know how long we have left with her, but, to be honest, I have already started grieving. My nan is no longer there, not in spirit anyway.
I have recently had surgery on my eye, to correct a squint I have had since childhood. The operation went okay, however the squint was slightly over-corrected so now I am going to have to have more surgery and more eye drops and more pain and recovery.
But it will be okay. I will be okay. I used to let things get to me and get me down too much. But now, no matter what happens, I always remember that for every bad thing that may happen, there is something good around the corner.
I am not the same girl I was in 2006. The girl who was terrified, sad, depressed and alone. It has taken me a while and it has certainly not been easy. But I am finally becoming the person I think I was always meant to be. The person who I want to be.
And thank goodness for that!
I hope you all are well.
Kym