We'll meet again when both our cars collide...

I imagine they're singing to me...for me... And that makes everything better....if only for a moment.

Though I do wish I could love the music just to love the music. But then I wonder what the music would be like without this deep emotional connection. Would I still love it to the same extent? Or is it my pain that connects me to the rythms, meoldies, and lyrics? Then again, regardless of how I feel, My Chem is an amazing band. And if I do feel this way, at least their music is here for me....to help ease the pain and take away the knife. It's not even a knife. It's a dull exacto knife refill blade. Good only for scratches. But it's away now. And my wounds are already healing. I know I'm happy about this, and I know I'm making progress, even with the pain I was in today...My Chem made me strong enough to keep the blade in its current place. Them and talking to my two best friends. But my friends can't always be there. My Chem can play 24/7 on my ipod and computer. They have before and they will again. They are.

Today's new. Today's different. Today I can think of the positive. And I will think of the positive again in a few hours when I'm awake. Sleep can only make things better, right? Like a hot shower or homemade dark chocolate raspberry cheesecake. (I had both the shower and the cheesecake already.) I will wake up in 6 hours ready for a bright new day. The sun will be shining and the weather pleasant. I'll be able to go to class and take fantastic notes and care once again. I'l be able to go to work with a positive attitude instead of faking it the way I've been doing. But most importantly, tomorrow will be the first full day the blade will remain where it is. Because at the moment, My Chemical Romance is playing for me. They're playing for everyone who needs the help.

For this, I am grateful. For this, I am hopeful.

Goodnight fellow fans.

<3

Ps. Enjoy a few of my drawings once again...(I know I've posted these at least twice now...) Yes, I know there are two gerard drawing in the last picture..And yes his lips are poorly drawn in the drawing in the bottom row, middle. Don't know how or why I did that....