There Goes My Life...

Oh my gosh you retarded blog thing! This IS NOT SPAM!!! I'm trying to post about my dog who just died an hour and twenty minutes ago!

I hurt. I can't breathe. And as soon as I feel my tears slow, a fresh wave starts up again.

My heart will combust.

I just wish I were numb.

My mom called me in tears earlier to say that they took my dog to the vet because he wasn't doing well. She said they gave him some medication. They said that should help. He got worse. Something ruptured. When I was on the phone with my mom, he stopped breathing.

My sweet baby boy...He was there for me when I needed him the most, but I couldn't be there for him when he needed me. My parents couldn't afford the surgery that could have saved his life.

He was just a little boy. Only 6 years old. He was so playful and loving. He cared about everyone.

I was going to take him on our usual walks this week when I was home for spring break. I was finally going to be able to spend some time with him.

My mom asked me several times if I was still there over the course of our conversation. "Yeah" was pretty much all I could say. She asked me if I was alright. "I dunno" was all I could say. We hung up and I've been crying non-stop ever since.

Nothing's helping. I wish I were numb. I wish he were still alive. I wish I could be there.

I want my baby boy. He meant so much more than life to me. He was most of my world.

So there goes my life
Passing by with every exit sign
It's been so long
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong
No sleep tonight
I'll keep on driving these dark highway lines
And as the moon fades
One more night gone, only twenty more days

But I will see you again
I will see you again a long time from now

And there goes my life
Passing by with every departing flight
And its been so hard
So much time so far apart
And she walks the night
How many hearts will die tonight
And will things have changed
I guess I'll find out IN seventeen days

But I will see you again
I will see you again a long time from now

My body aches
And it hurts to say
That no one is moving
And I wish that I weren't here tonight
But this is my life

And I will see you again
I will see you again a long time from now

And I will see you again
I will see you again a long time from now
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