I know that they'll never see this, and they probably don't give two shits about a random girl from a small ass town in the Midwest, but I just need to share this. I love My Chemical Romance. I love them for their music, their message, their goal to help people. I love how they give people who seem like hopeless cases the strength to carry on in their lives, all because of some heartfelt melodies and lyrics that were carefully picked straight from the soul. I love how they can make me cry by just listening to a song because it relates to me in that perfect way, and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I love how I can look up to them because they are strong, respectable, passionate, amazing men who accept who they are and love what they do. I love them because I can be proud when I say: I am a member of the MCRmy, and the band My Chemical Romance has made a difference in my life.
I haven't been a fan for long, only about 2 and a half years (which isn't long compared to the fans who've been around since bullets. My measly 2.5 years pales in comparison), but I can truly say I love this band with all my heart. I know we use the phrase 'I love this' or 'I love that' a lot, and a lot of the times we really don't mean it. We use it as a careless phrase, a passing of words that mean nothing at all. But when I say I love My Chemical Romance, I MEAN it. I mean it because they make me feel emotions that I thought I'd locked away in my chest a long time ago because they hurt to much. I mean it because they made me feel like it was okay to be sad, that I wasn't some freak because I was unhappy. I mean it when I say I love them because they encouraged me to reach out to my friends and family when I hit a new low. I mean it because when I felt like I couldn't open up to anyone, I listened to their music and it made it seem like everything was alright.
They made me feel like my mild social anxiety, separation anxiety, mild depression at times, a line of emotions that are as straight as the track to a roller-coaster, social awkwardness where I have no idea when I should speak up or just shut my fucking mouth, and periods of serious self consciousness are things that I should accept because they are part of who I am.
"All your quirks, all your problems, even your depressions and your failures, that's what makes you, you."
They helped me understand the idea that its okay to be different, to be weird, because everyone is fucked up in some way. I'm not alone.
I know they're just rumors, but I can't help but panic. My Chemical Romance means a LOT to me. A LOT. They've impacted my life and changed it for the better. Obviously, I have to give a ton of credit to my friends and family for pulling me out of the hole I dug for myself, but MCR was always there as the backing track to my life, pushing me forward when I thought I couldn't make it any further. If they decide to break up, it's their decision, their lives. Again, I know they're just rumors but I kind of panicked so I wrote this whole thing even though they'll never read it....
I really hope they don't break up, not for a long, long time. But if they feel that it's the right thing to do for them, yeah I'll cry and be sad, but I'll be happy for them and hope that they can continue their lives in happiness.
I wish I could meet them, tell them how much they've helped me and how much I love their music and their message. I know it'll never happen, but I can dream.
I love My Chemical Romance. They are my favorite band, and they will be for a while. Even when I'm old and have a family of my own (hopefully), even when I discover new music or, hell, go deaf, they'll always have a place in my heart.
