I've already explained how much this song means to me, numerous times....but...it gets to me. Every time. No matter how many times I listen to it, I remember. And I get this ache in my chest, like my hearts breaking all over again. But more like breaking open, to let everything out. To let OUT the pain and not just hold it in, bottle it up until its to much to handle. That's what I love about this song, besides the personally meaning. I love that it makes you feel hopeful, like the world isn't totally wasted. Like you MEAN something.
Truthfully, this song makes me feel old. For God's sake, I'm only fourteen, certainly not old. I'm only a teenager. But this song, when I listen to it, it makes practically everything in my life that was important to me flash into my mind. And I realize, a lot of shit has happened to me in the short amount of time I've been alive. A lot of good, a lot of great, a ton of bad. But hey, life goes on. And soon enough, we'll ALL just be kids from yesterday.
We are a growing generation, and before you know it, it'll be OUR kids who are going through our CD's and finding MCR's music, asking "What the hell is this?" And you'll have to explain exactly how much MCR meant to you, as a kid, as a teenager, and then, as an adult.
I never want to grow up, not in the slightest bit. I'm terrified, believe me. But this song makes me a little less scared, and a little more confident that everything will be okay. That it's NORMAL to have shit and problems in your life. And above all, that you can get over those problems. This song means more to me than anyone will ever know. I could never explain fully what this song does to me in words. However, I can try to write something of my own that means just as much to me. At the moment, I'm working on my own song. My own form of Kids from Yesterday, if you will. A song containing everything important to me in it, just a little melody and harmony mixed in. Maybe I'll finish it and put it up, maybe it'll be left behind with so many other songs and things that I've given up on.
But I know that Kids from Yesterday and MCR are two things that will never be left behind in my life, no matter what happens.
The men in MCR, Mikey, Ray, Gerard, and Frank all have a place in every fans heart, including mine. None of us really know them personally, but they're the creators of the music that have kept all of us going at one point or another. They are the musicians who put the soundtrack to our lives on this Earth, and I'm EXTREMELY glad and thankful that they did. If not, who knows. I might still be dealing with problems that are past in my life.
They are amazing people, musicians, and to some, heroes. Many look up to them as just celebrities, but I look at them and think: This is who I want to be like when I grow up. I want to be like them, saving lives, helping people through the shit that they think they'll drown in, making music that connects to anyone, anywhere.
MCR didn't save my life, I have too many other people who I give that credit to. My sisters, my brother, my friends, my boyfriend, my parents, they all saved me. MCR, however, was the soundtrack behind it all. They are what I listened to when none of those people could help.
They did save me, though, from making a mistake that could have changed everything for the worse, and for that I'll always be grateful.
I will never be able to thank any of them enough, and I doubt I'll ever be able to share my thoughts and story with them, no matter how much I hope and dream for it to happen. But I guess that's the way life goes. You look up to people, and then that's all you can do. Look up to them until you make your own way and your own route to success.
I know this is a lot coming from a fourteen year old. A lot of people look at me and hear me speak my mind, and instantly think: She has no idea what she's talking about.
But I'm a fourteen year old who has had more than enough stress and trauma for at least a couple years, maybe a lifetime. So I say one last thing before I say good night this Friday night.
Keep running, and don't be afraid to share your opinions. Be loud and be proud, show your colors and be yourself. Don't hide behind a mask so people will love you, be yourself and people will love you for YOU.
Always be prepared: bring your bullets. Seek revenge. Lead your own parade. Make some noise.
Goodbye for now, MCRmy. See you tomorrow, bright and early.
-Mimi
