Somewhat of my anthem at the moment

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Somewhat of my anthem at the moment

This song just...I don't know. Music has always been able to connect strongly with me, whether it's the melody or the lyrics, the rhythm or the beat....usually I can find SOME way to try to interpret it to mean something. (unless it's pop....pop songs are USUALLY about partying and things, and I don't...well...party. Ever.) (Not bashing pop, I'm just saying it's not my kinda music.)
This song is a generalization of one period of my life, which was the past two years. Not so much now, but sometimes I still get...itches...wanting things I'm not supposed to. I got over my addiction, but the itch is still there. Under my skin. I get all twitchy and I start seeing exactly what I'd do in my head...*shudder*. Okay. I'm going to stop there.
Anyway.
This whole song gives me the image of me these past two years. Huddled in the bathroom, hiding in the corner. Crying or totally emotionless, doing what I should never have started doing in the first place. Hiding my body with sweaters and long sleeves, always wearing pants, even in the spring seasons.
Living in constant fear someone would see, because I DIDN'T WANT THEM TO SEE.
Feeling hysterical and always trapped, scared out of my mind, alone. Sad. Always sad.
This song is a representation of myself, and it kind of makes me feel a little better. The song being put out there for other people who went through nearly the same thing I did, making them feel like they're not alone, like others understand what's going on.
The way Billie Joe Armstrong says "Little girl, little one, etc" throughout the song reminds me of innocence. How I think I'm all grown up, how I REALLY thought I was all grown up these past two years, when really I'm still a child. Just a fucking child.
Making stupid decisions that hurt me and others around me, killing myself slowly but surely.
I'm glad I'm past that. I hope I never go back.
Anyone who is going through something like this, feel free to message me. I'll try my best to talk to you, take your mind off it for a while, help you out.
Love you all. You're all beautiful, you're all amazing <3