I'm always trying to escape the inevitable

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I'm always trying to escape the inevitable

So everyone around my school is super excited about homecoming and I'm just...not.
It just doesn't seem like something I'd enjoy. A lot of people that I already feel uncomfortable around in a cramped space all dressed up and dancing....I don't know.
My ex boyfriend who I'm still really good friends with asked me, but I still get super nervous and uncomfortable around him, especially when we're alone, so I kindly rejected the invitation. I wanted to ask Taylor, but I know that Cody is going to ask her. She said she'd go with me to Junior homecoming, but....that's doubtful.
If I went then I'd probably end up sitting in the corner at a table by myself....oh well. I'll worry about it another time.
Lately I've been feeling like everything I do is wrong. Like I'm going against some kind of....pre determined path that's been set for me and every time I take a step it's another mistake. I found this song really fitting :/
There's got to be SOMETHING I'm doing right though...
Every time I try to think of something though, it's just mistake after mistake after mistake.
Going after Taylor, hoping one day she'll like me back--mistake.
Hanging around Matthew trying to patch things up when I know that it could potentially end up as a train wreck--mistake.
Worrying about every little thing, over thinking EVERYTHING--mistake.
Not telling my mom how I'm feeling--mistake.

I don't know how you don't choke
On every lie you've ever told to me
You kept me sick
You took it all
You kept me complacent
But not for long

Run