I really need some sleep...

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I really need some sleep...

So the past few nights I've been having really odd sleeping patterns. I haven't gone to bed any earlier than about 4:35 in the morning, and I wake up repeatedly after I finally fall asleep, and finally get out of bed at around 7:30 ish. I've never been the best when it comes to good sleeping patterns. I have off and on insomnia, where some nights, no matter how fucking tired I am, I just can't. Go. To sleep.
So right now, my head hurts like hell and it kind of feels like I'm not even here, you know? I feel really distant, like there's a film in front of everything. My heads really cloudy and I can't focus more than usual (I have a REALLY fucking short attention span, and I can never sit still. I am a very hyperactive person by nature xP). Some people have suggested sleeping pills to me, but I'm actually really scared of them. I mean, what if I take them and don't wake up? They're just one of those things I can't help be paranoid about...
I'm still laying in bed, not sleeping, even though its 11:12 in the morning and I should be having breakfast and getting ready to go to this STUPID FUCKING RETREAT that I need to go to for my confirmation thingy, but I just can't make myself get out of bed. What's the point? Oh well. I can hear my dad right now coming up stairs to yell at me to get up. One second.....

Okay, yep, he yelled at me. Half-heartdly, though. He doesn't really care.
My brother left to go back to college today. I already miss him. My sister is at work, my little sister is making pancakes, and my dad is working in his home office, like always.
Hope you guys have a good day. Love you all <3