At the moment I'm sitting in my room crying to the ssong Disenchanted. That song means so much to me.... no matter what, every single time I listen to it I cry. I break down right when Gerard sings :it was a lie when they smiled and said you wont feel a thing. Because its so true. No one ever told me life was going to be his hard. Everyone thinks im fine because ive been to aa therapist and I smile now. That smiles a mask. Sorry to break it to ya. Of course sometimes I'm really happy, like when I'm with Matthew or listening to mcr. But otherwise most of the ttime I'm crying behind my smile. I know that ssounds really pathetic but no one can say theyve put on a smsmile before when they wwere shattered on the inside.
Disenchanted is practically my life story because everyday I'm terrified ill go into a relapse. That ill finally snap after month's of slowly breaking. That ill turn into that 'sad song ' again. After all of the shit ive been through though, I dont think Matthew still has learner a goddamn think. See the songs connection? Yeah.
Everyone has that one or couple songs that relate to them perfectly or have helped them. All oof those sosongs that have helped me or relate to me perfectly are My chemical Romance songs.
I love you mcr. Thanks for writing songs that actually mean something <3
