No one understands...

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No one understands...

No one seems to understand how I feel about Money. No one seems to understand how much I HATE corporations. No one seems to understand that I can't do a normal person's job. I don't know what the fuck I am going to do.

I hate bitching, I hate complaining, I hate writing on here about the way I feel. I feel like you guys don't need to know, its not your problem.

But I find myself doing it anyway.. whether I am looking for help or just a place to vent.. I don't know.. I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate everything!

I tried to write page 26 but then shit happened, people want to talk to me about things telling me what I need to do without even understanding how I feel.

It makes me sick, like literally, I feel like throwing up... I don't want to be awake, ever! I hate the sun, I hate life (anything with a pulse) I hate the future I hate the past I hate the present!

I wish I had super powers or something or was just, like, invincible and I never had to eat. I would live on the fucking street and do charity work for people when they asked for my help. I would just play guitar and tell stories. But life doesn't work like that. People want money, people need money so they can have the bullshit they want, people want money so they can have a higher status above other people, people will sell their fucking soul for a god damned quarter if they were making a fucking profit.

I FUCKING HATE ALL THIS SHIT SO MUCH! I can't stand it when people kill themselves over bullshit too. It makes me think, thats the fucking same as spending your whole life working for nothing, either way you are just looking for the fucking easy way out.

Everyone wants to change the world but no one wants to die huh? WELL I WANT TO CHANGE THE FUCKING WORLD! AND I WILL DIE FOR IT! BUT I WOULD RATHER LIVE FOR IT! BUT THE PEOPLE WON'T LIVE FOR ME!

Fucking ridiculous world we live in! I wish I wasn't human or just knew how to get the fuck out of this shit! I would rather live in a fucking jungle like that one guy that put up with this shit anymore! I can't stand the way people treat each other! If someone wants something and you don't need it, FUCKING GIVE IT TO THEM! WHY NOT!

Fucking bullshit corporations always trying to make a profit. "Well the people have families to feed, so they have to make money." Well why doesn't that family instead of ripping off another family that has to feed themselves! People ARE SO FUCKING IGNORANT! I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN BECAUSE I NEVER ASKED FOR ANY OF THIS YET I HAVE TO FUCKING DEAL WITH IT EVERY DOG DAMNED DAY!

WHY FUCKING WHY!

I Fucking hate everything! I wish I was an animal, then I would live in the same fucking world, experience the same fucking shit, and do all the same fucking things except guess what... WITHOUT MONEY!

How the fuck do wolves survive? They work in a group to take down animals in the wild, DO THE FUCKING ANIMALS ASK FOR $3 A POUND! FUCK NO!

Did you know people sell fucking ROCKS!! HOW FUCKING STUPID CAN YOU BE TO BUY A FUCKING ROCK! Damn... Some people say they can sell ice to the devil in hell... but really what there saying is, "I can lie my way through life and cheat the ignorant" who probably worked hard for their money and just want something fucking nice for a change.

GOD DAMN IT! CAN'T EVEN FUCKING MARRY A GIRL WITHOUT SOMEONE WANTING A BILLION FUCKING DOLLARS FROM ME!

FUCK THIS WORLD! FUCK THE BL IND! FUCK EVERYTHING!

If there is a god, he doesn't believe in himself.