Ok, so this is happening at my apartment:
My two roommates, Natalie and Jessica, are in a diet. They are 20 and 15 pounds over their ideal weight, respectively. They want to lose weight and feel good about themselves.
Here is the problem: I am 5 pounds under my "healthy" weight, I eat all I want and gain zero pounds, I have a bright and joyous personality, and I feel great about myself. On top of that, they all have boyfriends, but in my case I have the most romantic, caring, and protective fiance a girl could ask for...so, yea.
On top of them being somewhat jealous of my personality and body, they are envious of me having a great man by my side who kisses me on the corner of the eye, the cheek, and whispers "I love you" to my ear every five minutes. Not that they want him, they want someone LIKE him.
I'm just here sitting and looking at them trying to become what they can accomplish without the need of diet or healthy pills or all that bullshit that is makeup (I'm not hating on makeup, but on the people who say that you need makeup in order to be pretty)...
The main problem is that they have the lowest self-esteem I've ever seen. They wear "masks" everywhere they go because they are scared of losing people for being what they truly are. They are being the way people want them to be, and that is all bullshit. They are beautiful, even more beautiful than their stupid masks! What they need to do is to get over themselves and just be!
This is also affecting me in the way that I feel like I am the reason why they feel so miserable about themselves, and I feel guilty. Everybody likes me for the way I am, I have God in my life, and I have a very strong faith...three factors that causes them to feel less of a person.
That is why I am moving out in the summer. I am gonna live with two beautiful, Christian, thin girls who feel great about themselves. I recently got over something that was haunting me and now is gone forever, and I have to thank God, Clint, and Jessica for that. I know I had to be their roommates for some reason, and that reason is done with. Now is time for me to move on and continue my way in life.
You are beautiful! Unless is health conditions, you don't need diets or makeup, or even masks to feel great. The real and beautiful you is in your heart!
Love, Fallen Angel
