Damn it, I hate nightmares. On Friday night, I fell asleep and immediately had a horrible dream that took place while I was in 7th grade (I know, because the teachers in it were my teachers from this past school year). In that dream, I had cancer. I dunno what type, just that they'd done a test and it came up positive for cancer. I was at school during part of it, and they pulled me out of class. I don't remember part of it, just that they said I had to go through chemotherapy. I remember asking if it would hurt. My dream-self knew it would, and for some reason my dream-self had a memory of someone telling my dream-self that chemo feels like you're burning. That's about all that I remember.
From that, resulted a song, which I titled "Goodbye". I suppose it's got a certain similarity to Cancer from The Black Parade, but it's quite an original.
"GOODBYE"
Chorus
So long, cold world
To those who were really there
I love you this loud
And I, I can't go without
Saying goodbye—goodbye
Goodbye
Verse 1
Life's cruel and life's a bitch
It sucks and we die
Great thing we call this life
For me it's no more as I'm
Being devoured by the
Radiation in my veins
Verse 2
"Will it hurt?" I asked quietly.
"Why me?" I demanded.
"Please stop!" I screamed.
Through all my agony,
Through all of my pleading,
Oh, God, just let me go!
Oh, please, just kill me now!
Chorus
So long, cold world
To those who always put up with me
I love you this loud
And I, I can't go without
Saying goodbye—goodbye
Goodbye
Verse 3
Maybe I'm worthless,
And maybe I'm hairless,
Maybe I deserve my disease
But I can't think of a worse life than this
Cancer, oh, cancer, why do you love me?
Verse 4
Maybe it's the chemo,
Maybe it's my loss of faith,
Maybe it's nothing at all,
But inside I'm burning, and frying, and dying
And all days I'm aching to be free.
Chorus
So long, cold world
To those who always put up with me
I love you this loud
And I, I can't go without
Saying goodbye—goodbye
Goodbye
[Right here would be a really neat choral part. A bunch of people performing "oh"s over and over again, with a few sopranos singing incredibly high at the end.]
Coda
Goodbye
Goodbye {scream "So long"}
I'm safe now, I'm safe now,
I'm safe now, I'm safe now,
[repeats twice]
Oh oh, whoa oh
Chorus
So long, cold world
To those who always put up with me
I love you this loud
And I, I can't go without
Saying goodbye—goodbye
Goodbye [the last "goodbye" echoes, getting softer until the music fades out]
Well... That's it. Love you guys, and hope your weekend's been better than mine.
xoxo,
Caiti
