Is watching Planet Of The Apes
am I just invisible?
another rant about my mother.
I've just given up on her. She can't bother to understand me, why the hell should I keep trying?
It's only causing me more pain. She may think I'm happy, when really, I'm just content right now.
My best friend tried to commit suicide and won't tell me why.
Even after I told her everything shitty about my life.
Thanks for the trust.
No words make me happy anymore.
I feel like it's all a joke, like someone is mocking me in some way.
The only way I'm happy is when my bf messes with my foot.
Woooo. Not a lasting happiness.
My brother keeps making fun of me about how I dress.
Saying I'm emo.
How everyone hates me.
My dad is barely involved with my family at all, and he's still married to my mom.
Soooo I don't have anyone close to me anymore.
Which is pretty much why I come here to endlessly complain about how my life sucks.
sigh. tell me why your life sucks. I need it right now.
xoxo,
M
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Glad to know someone, somewhere, gets where I'm coming from.
I'm just giving up...
not on life, no way.
But I'm going to hold on to MCR's music,
the one thing that actually means something,
and just carry on.
I've been trying to keep this spirit of mine that has died a long time ago.
I can't keep lugging a burdon that does me nothing but pain.
I don't give a crap about what the guys at school say, they can fall in a well for all I care.
But my brother, he beats me up. He throws me to the ground. He never leaves me alone.
I try to not listen...but I can't block out my life.
seems like there is alot of things that are getting you guys down
but at the end of the day the only person that is going to make you happy is yourself, people will let you down/call you names because that is life
i know this probably sounds condacending but unfortunately you are going to get those sort of people until your old and grey, but that does not mean that life is not enjoyable.
Obviously you are here because a love of a band, people are going to diss them because it isnt their cup of tea but WHO CARES if it makes you happy, I got made fun of for years for the way i dressed, and it upset me too every single day it got to me until I stopped taking on what they said, obviously they musnt be too happy with their own life if they want to make fun of everyone else,
keep drawing if its what you enjoy, keep dressing the way you dress if it makes you happy
but most importantly let things slide of your back, which is soooo difficult but with time you will be able to do it, laugh in the face of people that want to make fun of you, i mean what a pathetic existance making fun of someone else.
you guys are going to grow up and be beautiful people because you will know how it feels to be let down and be treated not very nicely and then you will not treat other people like that.
When i used to get really down i would put on a cd that I loved and I would love the fact that I was alive to hear such brillant music and if no one else understood than it sucks to be them for missing out on such a talented band.
Well you can tell your brother that he can got f**k himself!!! Dont listen to that weak shit! We are all friends at MCR.com!!! We all love you!!! Oh and btW, if the only thing that males you happy is that your bf does somthing to your foot, then you are very low down*nods*
Wanna know why my life is shitty? Here you go:
My mom and my dad work late, whitch has made me kinda a-social.
My dad drinks every weekend, whitch makes me hate weekends, and that means i dont like any day of the week.
My sister thinks i am emo, i am a tastless nerd, an idiot, and many other things.
I wear glasses! I have pimples!!! I have a tiny head and i am the second tallest in our house!!! And we are four people in our house!!!
I used to get bullyed in scool, now it seems like everyone just ignores me.
Onone likes to hang with me. My old good friend left my friendship(well were still kinda friends) for a deepresed 14 year old whitch's face looks like a painting made of shit and trash! That bad is her male up!!!
I have astma, i lost my first and only real pet because of it.
I am lonely! I talk to myself every day!!!
I have no life! I am almost always on this web page, am only kot when i am in scool, asleep or in some pace where no internet is.
I draw to be happy, it makes me feel good. I think they come out good, but then my sister comes into the room, saying that mine arent good(she should know, shes really REALLY good)
One of my best friends is a pcyko. She told my old flame i had a crush on him, and i am still friends with her... She told him i have aloth of hair downstairs¡¡¡
I havent seen my grandpa for 6 years or so! I miss him!!!
There are lots more to tell, i just dont want you to waste your time...
hmmm....well my life isnt bad right now....but sometimes i get really sad and overthink about life and end up getting really sad and upset. Thats the worst feeling cuz normally it doesnt make much sense so im afraid to tell my friends incase they think im really weird.....
but if u need to talk, im always here
im sorry about all ur problems-if u feel like no ones close to u, come on here, cuz we all really care (or at least i do)
life can be really hard sometimes, and i feel the same way. its kinda like...u gotta try to get thro it, and fine something that u can hang onto until it gets better-MCR and this site can always offer that :) i really hope u feel better!
and remember, u can always talk to me!