I Need To Tell A Story (How My Chemical Romance Saved My Life)

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I Need To Tell A Story (How My Chemical Romance Saved My Life)

When I became a member of this site I posted a blog about how My Chemical Romance saved my life, but a few minutes after I had posted it I started to feel fear, I just wasn’t ready to share my story with everyone; I needed more time to think things over. So I delete the blog and I didn’t go into my account for a few days, because I was still afraid, but I am ready now, I need to tell the story of how My Chemical Romance saved my life. For the last year and a half I have been digging a hole in my mind to bury myself in. It all started when my best friend ended our relationship and then stopped talking to me and even stopped looking at me. A few weeks later my other best friend did the same and soon the rest of my friends turn their backs on me (I don’t know why), a part from two of them. The two friends I had left didn’t hang out with me a lot and it seemed as if our friendship was built on the words hi, hello, and bye. Even though they were my friends I didn't trust them because I find it very difficult to trust people (so many people had already broken promises to me and my heart), so I had no one to talk to. I didn’t trust my teachers, my family, or anyone else. I started to feel an emotion which was new to me it was like sadness, but it also made me feel empty and it didn’t go away. I also start to hate who I was and I would call myself horrible names so I knew I wouldn’t be happy. It seemed like I wanted to hurt myself and I did, I thought I was a horrible person because I wanted to talk to someone but if I talked to someone I would be giving all my problems to them and to me that was selfish. I got worse over time, and it was only when I started to not be able to sleep that I asked for help, but all they would say would be “you’re just stressed, relax” but the only reason why I was stressed was because I couldn’t sleep. Since I couldn’t sleep I started doing homework, drawing pictures, and writing stories and music while I was awake at night. On average I cried 10 times a day, and I wanted to run away from everything, I couldn’t cope with my life. Fortunately one night I was on the internet and I came across a song which I played and it made me feel a tiny bit of happiness which I hadn’t felt in a long time. The song was “Famous Last Words” by My Chemical Romance, I had been a MCR fan for many years but I hadn’t listened to them in a while. I had an idea that if one of their songs made me feel happy maybe the rest would too, so I became fixated, I listened to them every day for hours, I watched their music videos, read their lyrics like a bedtime story, I watched their interviews and I read their life stories. Gerard, Mikey, Frank, and Ray became like my older brothers who always had the best advice to give to me. Without My Chemical Romance I wouldn’t be posting a blog at all. Thank you My Chemical Romance, you gave me back my life and I couldn’t be happier. If you have music, Zone 6, and MCR you don’t stupid fake friends. Thank you My Chemical Romance.
Love From Dreaming Of MCR (aka Dreamer)