Emotional Detox Day 2: Waiting For The Pain To Stop (I Need Your Support, Please Read!!!)

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Emotional Detox Day 2: Waiting For The Pain To Stop (I Need Your Support, Please Read!!!)

So it’s the second day of my detox and I am finding it hard but I will still continue, I shall not give into the pain. Last night I found myself in a hard state of mind and I almost got lost in it again. After yesterday’s post I have let out all those horrible emotions and they thankfully haven’t found their way back to me. Anyway I found myself last night getting carried away in my emotions again and I spent what felt like hours crying and hoping for the pain to stop, but the damage in my heart can’t disappear that quickly. It was only when I put my headphone in the pain weakened its hold on me and I felt almost good. This came as a surprise to me because I had gone on so long without feeling a real smile on my face and last night I did. It was a little one but it was a smile, a sign that showed that there is still a tiny shred of happiness inside of me.
Today I was in class and I started crying again and I don’t think anyone noticed but I cried and now I feel another shred of happiness inside of. I think every time I let out some of my bad feeling a piece of my heart is repaired. I use to believe that crying was weak but I need to. The day is not over yet and this detox isn’t over yet either but I can still feel the tiny shreds of happiness but at the present time I still feel and dark and sadness, but at least I am getting better. To all my friends here please keep supporting me, your last comments helped me through the tears, and brought the smile to my face. I love you all, and hopefully I will be better soon.