So as most of you know for me this year has been horrible and I got so court up in my downwards spiral of black and dark things and all that stuff, I forgot my way out, I just kept running and I suppose that was the wrong decision. I have now found the way out because I have something worth fighting for. So the way out is by facing everything I ran from, my sadness, my fears, my terrors, and the people who turned me into the weak fire of anger I am now, and hopefully I can be a happy person again and become a star. I am now going to let everything out in this blog, here goes nothing:
We were friends at the beginning, we told each other everything and I could always go to them when I needed help but then that all changed. They turned their back to me, and all I could do was ask why and listen to the silence. I suppose losing all your closest friend without any notice or reason is enough to make someone feel sad and like you are being stabbed to death with a spoon, but with the addition of bullying your life becomes a living hell. I am not the kind of person to hold a grudge but I have considered punching my old friends in the face with huge fake diamond rings on my fingers, but I don’t want them to think they have won by turning me into someone I am not. The one thing I want to know is why, why did you leave me, why did you hurt me, did you mean to, why can’t you just say you hate me and then let me get over all of this? It’s okay if people hate me, but they were my friends I would understand if they told me why they are doing what they are doing.
Okay there it is my old friends have left me broken and I am having this emotional detox so I can repair myself, and gosh after just writing that I am upset but this is what I have to get out. To my friends here thank you for reading and thank you for always caring.
