For the past two weeks my school has been on holidays, but next week it starts again and I am not sure what to do. Last term my bullies and so called “friends” drove me to the edge and pushed me off it, and I have spent the whole holidays trying to repair my emotions and heart but I am still not ready to see all of those betrayers again. I don’t hold a grudge against them, once you have been bullied and kicked and punched so many times you start to get sick of anger, but whenever I see them or think about we they have and are doing to me I burst into tears, and I then go hide in a corn somewhere. Over these holidays because I had no one my thought started to become very scary but then I found My Chemical Romance again and everything started to get better, but now I am faced with the reality that I have to return to the place where everything went wrong. I am worried that I am going to go back to that same person I became because of it. I normally ignore all the bad things people say and do to me but a person can only be kicked so many times before they are knocked out for good. Is there anyone out there that can relate and help, please? One thing though I can’t trust people so if you tell me to go talk to someone the only person I could really go to is you, it’s easier to talk to someone when you know they can’t spread rumours and stuff like that around because they don’t know who you are. Anyway please, I think I just need to know that someone is there.
From a Pleading Dreaming Of MCR
