EMBARRASSING!!

I just wanna make this clear - you REALLY DON'T have to COMMENT on this!
It's just a random blog about today!
So there's this guy who I really like but I messed up my relationship with him!
And he got on my coach today on the way home from school and I was like hyperventilating!!
And my friend said to just be myself! And I was like, how the fuck is that gonna help me?!?!
He's not fit or anything (sorry jonathan but you're kinda not!) but I've known him since I was 4!
+ I really like him but he won't ever like me!
It's so unfair!!