Life is so Complex

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Life is so Complex

Here I am again, but this time I want to open up and vent my opinion of the hardest and most complex topic in the world, that would be life. Life has its ups and it downs, from being on top of the world to staring into space, trying tom figure out how to make the pain and misery go away. To me I must admit that I have been to both extremes, down to the very bottom more than once I must admit, especially recently. I try to do everything right in life, but the problem with that is that it only makes life worse for me. I have lost a lot of good things in life, from family to friends, the closest people to me to only people i just met. Each time it happens I go back to the bottom, thinking more and more about then pain and misery just leaving forever. I know this may sound like I need help but the truth is.... I really don't need any help at all. It is actually a part of life and I have learned to just accept that from now on. Why is life like this I ask all of you.... What is the point of being alive? To just become weaker and weaker while being in more and more pain before just leaving? What is the point of all of that? What makes it all worth it? Those are my questions and there may never be any true answers to them, even though many people have opinions. What made me want to speak all this out in a blog most of you are wondering but here is my answer. People have been horrible lately and from now on, there is not trust left in me towards anybody, except one person. That person is the only person I can reveal my problems and thoughts too, but even that person does not have as much of my trust as she used to be. To whoever actually read this, thank you for taking the time to actually gave a moment and care about what i have to say. I started this account to find more people like me and for that reason, even though I know the time has passed, I would like to join the community as a fellow killjoy, fans and lovers of MCR... Thank you...