Odd feelings...

I'm having really weird relapse feelings. I've never had relapse feelings quite this strong.

I want nothing more than to just take a bunch of Ativan and drink a lot of alcohol. That would be amazing. I just want to be fucked up right now.

The weird thing is, I never really had real addictions (I refuse to believe they were). I only did pills for like 2 years and alcohol for maybe 18 months. I guess they were both to extremes though. Haha, not like I was an alcoholic. I only drank when I was overtly upset (unfortunately I was like 13-15 at the time, so I was upset a lot).

Anyways, just all the sudden, I had these extreme feelings of wanting to relapse. Lucky me I have a place to blog at (yay for MCR, saving me once again), and...no pills or alcohol (being underage and living with not parents equals no alcohol at all).

Thanks to all that read. Lets me know that people semi care about what I have to say =)