You are starting to get on my nerves...

He is.
He really, really is.
Im sorry but i just need to have a rant.
Okay, so i might have a small crush on one of my guy mates. A few weeks ago it was a hell of a lot worse.
But we get on well and stuff and have a laugh and i suppose i could have said we were really good mates.
But ohhhh no. Saturday ruined it all.
Okay, so what if we mess about a lot, he does that with everyone. Doesnt mean we're "getting too close".
My friend Daisy told him that he doesnt act like he has a girlfriend around me. And to make things worse his girlfriends friend had a go at him saying "Your getting too close" and "It's beyond a joke".
We were like "Errr wtf, we're mates...." (I wanted more than that, and it hurt like hell when he said "We're just mates and thats all i wanna be.." i kinda didnt read the rest of it lol. But i dont know if thats coz he's with someone or just in general).
Now he's acting all weird. He doesnt hug me that much anymore. He doesnt talk that much to me anymore. I seem to annoy him more :(
I... i know why he's doing it. And sure, i spent a morning crying in bed and then ended up bursting into tears in my German lesson Monday morning, but i love him lots as a friend and just have a small crush on him. And things we're going great friendwise. I know i cant have him, but i still like having him as a friend :)
Its like taking two steps forward (into really good friends) then two steps back (Back to just normality).
I dont want to loose him as a friend. But its going that way now. And i KNOW, yes he should hang out with his gf blah blah blah etc etc but i only have a few months left of school. I only get to see him, Daisy and Ryan for 2/3 more months then im gone and itll only be weekends and he could be stuck with his girlfriend (whose two years younger than him btw, so Year 8).
I used to know that he liked me as a friend and wanted to hang out and stuff but now i just feel.... i dont know its complicated. Im being ignored again.
Im such a bitch lol. I just dont want to loose another friend i love him and Daisy as mates we have a laugh :(
If you do comment, dont say that im selfish a bitch etc. I know that already lol.
Sorry for my rant.
I really need to do my History now.... or go to bed. Whatever.
Night All
xxxxx
=)