Okay so, once again I want to say thank you to all that have been trying to get me through this rough patch in my life, I truly appreciate it.
But now, I have another dillema sadly.
So I've been at home for the past few days and I don't want to have to go back because my teachers always pick on me when I come back after being absent but, I have progress day this Friday and I have to go with my parent to pick my report and shit which is gonna be hard seeing as, I have my file with me and if I dont go, I might not get my holiday package.
My teachers have the papers and all and they have the report card from last time( I didnt bring it back either) but now if my mum goes, they'll ask what happened annndd.... I kind of told a lie....
I'M SO ASHAMED AND ANGRY WITH MYSELF!
I lied that this week we're not studying cause it's the last week but we are and now, my parents let me stay home instead of going and getting educated.
Ofcourse even if I went, I wouldn't learn, I would just draw and daydream through the day because of all the anxiety.
So what do I do guys?
I hate lying to my parents, but it had to be done.
And now I'm afraid that I my headmistress is gonna call and yell and just...ugh...
I'm waking up with panic attacks everymorning and I'm not even leaving my room.
I'm literally in here all day until night when everyone's home because I can blend in. I don't want to go back because of the making fun of me part, and also the whole depression thing.
It's just too much.
Please help me killjoy family, I really need you.
Music is my only escape from this fucked world and now, I'm even losing hope for that.