This summer marks the fourth aniversery of my life being destroyed. 11 years ago my family and i moved to maryland. We lived there for 7 years. During that time, I met the guy i love, i made three really good friends (one of them is the one i love), had an active social life, was in complete control, and was really happy. When we moved here four years ago, my life was destroyed. I startid not doing my school/home work, lying, being cruel, and becoming lonely. I got depression but no one knows (or cares), I was always lonely, I got a boyfriend but he dumped me for my best friend. I cried at night for the life that i had lost. I couldnt sleep because my demons keep me up at night. My one friend left me for a group of friends he liked better, he would seriously leave me if he saw them, even if we were in the middle of a conversation. I couldnt take it. One day, my mom got mad at me and pushed me over the edge. She left the house to go shopping, taking my brothers with her. I ran away. Correction, I just upped and left. At first, I was worried about the police, but then I realised that for probably the only time in my life, i was truly free. Those of you who havent had that expirience should really feel it. Then the police found me, and destroyd the best feeling in the world. I sang MCR all the way to my house, where everyone made a big deal over it. it was only six hours. But then i started lying and not doing my work again, which culminated at a full day of my parents screaming at me, and making me clean my room at midnight, even though i had to wake up at five the next day for a flight. My family was on vacation, and it was great for a time, But then my friend emailed me, and it turns out that he is cutting and is gonna go to therapy (i should add that he has a bas history with therapy). Now, i am starting to wanna cut myself again, and i think im becoming anorexic or something.You have probably heard about lives messed up alot more than mine, but I just had to get this out. Unhappy Aniversery! for anyone who cares, that is.
