Ist es zu viel, zu bitten, gerade fest gehalten zu werden und gewährt zu werden, auf jemand zu schreien Schulter?

thats really all i want. to be held and allowed to do the one thing i havent been able to do for years. all thanks to an ex drilling in my head that crying is weak.....im tired of staying up till 3-4 in the morning crying. i just want to be told everything is ok.... ya know? i just want someone to tell me that "Alles ist in der Liebe und im Krieg angemessen." and sometimes we just have to rely on others to get better. I need some real friends. People i ca trust. :/