Another horrible end to a day. first of all i was at this meeting and i was wearing my MCR bracelet. a kid says to me that im only into weird things because i want to be the outcast. who in the world wants to be an outcast? well if that didnt ruin my day, my mom did the trick when i got home. she doesnt get that when she yells at me it just makes me cry, and then she yells at me for crying, but she caused the tears in the first place. i can never go to her for anything. i did once when i was having friend troubles, and she just told me that it was my fault. that i shouldnt have trusted the friend in the first place. way to make me feel better mom. so i never go to her when anything is wrong because she just makes me feel worse. today she started yelling at me that i always go to my aunt. that is true because my aunt actually listens to me. i dont know why she always has to be hard on me. also the other day she got upset becasue i went to my dad's house instead of going to a water park with her and my sister. she always makes me second guess myself, i had a horrible time at my dad's house becasue i was thinking of my mom getting mad at me the whole time. she doesnt get how hard the divorse has been on me, and she is always putting more pressure on me. she never understands what im going through becasue she never listens. tonight is another night in which i cry myself to sleep. thanks to anyone who actually took time to read this, it does mean alot to me. i just dont know why she always has to yell before she gives me a chance to explain, hope all of your lives are better then mine right now. all that i know is i must never give up and i must always keep running, i have MCR to thank for that. once again thanks to any killjoys for reading this.
-Cupcake Killer xo
