my own thoughts

Have you ever stopped and wondered... "have I finally lost my mind?" I wonder that too often. Too many times I can't bring myself to face myself, to face the world. Too many times people have to snap me from my own personal hallucinations. I see them. Those who did wrong to me. Their voices and laughs and taunts all too real. Too many times does everything become real again. Sometimes I wonder if I have actually lost myself. I've grown numb, too numb for my own liking, but when I remember it's all too real. The worthless feelings of regret, sadness, and anger are overwhelming. I can't help but feel hopeless. I forget to breathe and I want others around me to get hurt. Even after the overwhelming emotions fade away I stay trembling in fear and desperation, lost in my own mind, as the world keeps turning.

So... have I gone mad yet?

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