Haven't posted poetry in awhile

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Haven't posted poetry in awhile

but here it is. I wrote this earlier today. I hope you enjoy it.
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I know I’m far too young.
But these dark circles under my eyes tell differently.
Despite my smile,
My laugh,
My jokes,
And the joy you may see in my eyes,
It’s just fake.

I know I’m far too old for my age
And my thoughts show that.
I’m worried that I will do nothing with my life.
I’m worried that I will die tomorrow and leave no legacy of mine.
Despite my worries,
I’m nothing here,
Worthless here on this planet.

I know I should be carefree,
But I’m not.
I spend my free time in paranoia,
Living false fantasies.
Despite that fabricated feelings,
I still live in fear.

Fear of what though?
Fear of the world,
The unknown,
And more than anything,
The monster above all,

Myself.