I almost had sex for the first time

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I almost had sex for the first time

I don't know if anyone here finds it weird that I'm making such a big deal out of losing the big V for the first time, cos some people just loose it. But it's a big deal for me. And it almost happened yesterday night, and I swear if God wasn't there to stop me and my friend Roni from making a terrible mistake, I don't think I'd be able to live with myself.

So here's my story.

First of all, I need you to know Roni. He's a friend. I'm not in love with him nor have a crush on, and vice versa. He's actually trying to court my friend at the moment and I'm currently crushing on his friend (whose crushing on me too). Me and Roni are just friends who find each other extremely sexy. Okay, intro over.

Yesterday was the start of our Recollection: A (one night-two days) spiritual journey with my classmates in a convent called San Carlos Seminary. Yes. Of all the places to get absolutely horny, it had to be a fucking convent. I suck at being a Christian sometimes. Haha!

So me and my friend Roni sat at the back area, not listening to the spiritual leader at all. I don't know how we got to the topic of sex, but we just started talking about it. Can we all agree on the fact that sex is a fun topic to talk about? Right? So we talked sex. And not just sex. DIRTY sex. We talked about doing it in the dorm rooms, in the bus, in the chapel, in the prayer room.. The riskier the better. We even talked about positions: standing up and missionary. I said, "what's the purpose of going to confession if you got no sins to confess?"

At that point we were both getting turned on. But as far as I was concerned, we were kidding around. I thought this conversation was just for fun to fill up the boring air that suffocated us, but then he started talking about what time we should meet up that night. Suddenly, we weren't joking anymore. He was getting hard-ons and I was enjoying the fact that the things I said did things to his body.

So the plan was the prayer room. 12 at night.
But of course, it doesn't happen. Haha! Our teacher, Sr. Alinas, patrolled the corridors all throughout the night. It was too, too, TOO risky. It just wasn't happening.

So the next day, we sat on the same place we did yesterday and giggled over the fact that it didn't happen. But we were still talking dirty. Giggling over the fact that we were talking dirty for two days straight. But after hours of dirty talk, got serious again and the build up gave Roni hard-ons again and this time, got me wet. We agreed again to do it in the prayer room, this time just to touch each other. We didn't have protection and no matter how much I wanted it, I was honestly scared.

However, the twist of events and strength of security around us students did not allow us to meet again.

So the day ended and I decided to talk to him. This is what I said:

"You know, sometimes, when it's a day or two before a girls' period, a girl gets really horny. So... Yeah."

It was true. Towards the end of the day, I found that it was the first day of my period. Haha! And it's also true that a day or two before a girls' period, it's possible to be super horny. He was just present at that time. So we laughed about it, and he said that he was honestly happy that it didn't happen. I was glad too. I love Roni. With all my heart. But I'm glad that the universe did not permit us to do it, cos in truth, we were young and... Seriously? A CONVENT?! Haha, I still can't get over that part :))) It would've been a REALLY bad move. We're just too young.

We hugged. And hung out at a friends house. Today was a great day. And I'm so glad it didn't happen to me NOW. Now that I'm just a teenager. And now that I'm not in love with whom I wanted to loose my virginity to. I'm glad I experienced this because now I know that I can resist temptations in my life, no matter how crazy I get. Haha! How's that for a Christian girl?
~corpse