God, I hate my life

Everyone's so useful to society. My mom and dad both have jobs, and their both the providers of my family. My older sister (17 yrs old) has gone to so many science competitions, she's already earning money for it. And now she's off to a prestigious college.

And what can I do? Make stupid ass drawings. My academics are okay. I don't fail subjects, but I don't get awards for them either. I don't think my mom believes that I'll get into the same prestigious school as my sister.

I'M A FUCKING WEIGHT TO THE WORLD. Like this fat lady I drew. I call this one: Tinker Bell Must Die in Shame. Cos' no one ever believes in me! No one ever thinks I'm worth anything!

I'm a dying artist and the world will go on turning. All my ink and blood won't change the color of the ocean.