Flirtationship: It sucks.

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Flirtationship: It sucks.

We're friends as far as words go. But we cuddle, hug, bite and lick each other.. Even got to the sexting stage. But we never use the L word. We can't go there. I can't go there.

Flirtationship. I thought it'd be easy. It's so fucking not.
I thought I could keep up with this flirting stuff, and it's been easy at first. But then I started to want him all for myself. And then I felt guilty because, even though I never said a word of how I really felt, I have become selfish for him. And I don't own him! I have no right.

Sometimes, when he's with our other female friends, I just walk away as quick as possible. I don't want to see him with someone else. I don't want to face the truth. And I don't want to act like the annoying girlfriend. That's the last thing I want.

Graduation is coming. I can't be left hanging.
~corpse