Bleh

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Bleh

Like I said earlier in my very rant-like post, I hate Valentines Day. But, it's not as bad as I made it to be, I guess. I was in the middle of a mental relapse when I wrote it so...
I need some help, though. For a while now, I've kinda liked this guy, but it's been overshadowed with the whole I love my best friend thing... I decided that she needs me more than I need her and that I should stop following like a love-sick puppy because it's fucking pathetic.
ANYWAY, like I said, I've kinda liked this guy for a while... and it kinda just hit me very recently. We've been talking more often lately... and I'm not sure if I want to ask him out or not. I need some advice on that. I don't want to seem too forward, but I don't want to miss any chance I might have, either. So what should I do?

In other news, a few things happened in the course of me cooling down.
A) I finished my slideshow on music for tomorrow! It's fucking beautiful. I love it.
B) my mom and her boyfriend (long story, don't ask) had a great Valentines Day, which is good I suppose...
C) I talked to Antichrist Angel... The thing with her is she has really bad anxiety, and everything just kinda got to her I guess. I am in no way shape or form justifying her cutting herself, but I can kind of understand how she was feeling.
D) I was also texting Antichrist Angel earlier about things... and she really likes this one guy, but he isn't quite over the ex girlfriend that cheated on him, and he has some... issues. Not like he's bad or anything... he's actually like us, fucked in the head. But my point is, we were talking about him (forget why), and then she broke down crying and left... so yeah. I don't know what to do. I'll always be here for her... but I wish she didn't have to feel like this, you know?
Well, that's been my fucked up life so far, Killjoys.

-Chemical_Insanity