I need a Friend

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I need a Friend

I think alot of times i don't know what to believe is real, fake, or truth anymore. If what im being told by many people is really what they truly think of me, then that's fine. I dont care what people think about me. I dont care that im wierd, crazy or anything or that sort. No one wants to deal with people like me.. Either that or they just don't know how... probably both..... No one gets me....or they just don't wanna try and understand. Its much easier to pretend that a problem isn't there, instead of try and use a lot of extra energy to try and fix it.....sigh..... I feel as if shes all i got left And dammit she knows who she is Its torture being away .....I've been sheltered so much for so long that im socially akward....i cant call my friends...the few that i do have and after a while...they just quit trying to get in contact with me... Does no one get it!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Maybe they just don't wanna get it.... IDK. But its not important anyway... It hasn't changed since I was 8 anyways.... why should it know when I've got less then 4 months left to live in my parents house???? Hopefully everything in my life works out... I want to live a good long life...marry a woman that i know will make all my dreams come true and i hers.. I wanna raise a family. I wanna support them the best I can. ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE!!! And when its my time...whenever that time comes I will not be afraid. I am not afraid to die. Because if i end up above in heaven, I know that me reward will be beyhond my wildest dreams... And if i end up down below..... Well at least its warm.....
Ok Im done with my rant..... I feel a little better now. Hopefully people will read this and realize that I need a friend.... Im soooo lonely......
XOXOXOXOXOXO