MOTHER OF GOD!!!!!! IM DONE WITH THIS FUCKING SHIT!!!!!

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MOTHER OF GOD!!!!!! IM DONE WITH THIS FUCKING SHIT!!!!!

MY MOM!!!!
Like seriously!?
So, recently ive discovered my moms a pot head. im now understanding why people accuse me of being a pot head. im now understanding why i always smell it, and like it. im now understanding why there are so many lies.
But she's not done lying.
I flat out told her... "When i do what i want in life, and become a cop, you bet your ass will get charged."
She smokes it in the room next to me and my little sister. she's nine. then i have other ten year olds, and six year olds, and 3 year olds in here with me while she's partying.
im crying right now, because ive begged her to at least wait so i dont smell it, so she doesnt fuck with my siblings and their friends heads and minds, ive begged her to tell me the truth! She continues to lie to me about it!!!!!! She tells me she stopped and five minutes later i smell the pot, and i get sick, becuase... i used to do it, but i did it a lot and i began getting REALLY sick when iwas around it. ive told her that flat up too. she doesnt care.
also, does anyone know what it feels like, to know what you want in your future, and have to lie to people about your own mother, so you can achive it. but if they find out you've lied, then you're screwed. like i dont know how to put it, but thats i feel. I feel like im lying to myself and my "future(?) partners," and "future(?) boss". Does that make sense?
And along with that... i lie to my own father, telling him she doesnt smokepot. If he knew she did, he'd take me away from her and my sister and i CANT leave my sister with that cruel bitch! My sister doesnt have a father to go to, and ive been the only one here for her.
Hell, when i was 8 and she was 1 I WAS THE ONE feeding her, changing her, and all that shit. I would get up extra early to make sure she'd be getting ready for school and shit.
My mom knows all this!!!!!!!! IVE BEGGED HER!!!!! I HAVE CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT!!!!!! I have fucking cut myself just because of her (in the past. i dont do that anymore) and she knows that!!!!!
She's right in the next room smoking pot right now... what the hell