Been a while. I'm sinking into an ever-growing depression.

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Been a while. I'm sinking into an ever-growing depression.

Hey there MCRmy. I hope all of you are well. I am doing terrible right now. I feel like a patchworked human. MCR is one of the only things keeping me alive right now. Last night was pretty shitty, I gave serious thought to killing myself. But a member from the MCRmy and another friend of mine talked me out of it. Thank you Jovi Strand, your words meant a lot. I'm trying my best. I'm trying to survive when I just want to die. I would give anything to be able to see Gerard, Frank, Ray, or Mikey. Seeing them would give me some sort of motivation. I've lost all will to live. I've been completely emotionless for several days, I feel nothing. I feel no hope, sadness, happiness, nothing. My sins weigh me down like an anchor, and Im' trying to let go of them. I've been listening to Romance all day and it's helped me to see, that it's okay to screw up. We're only human right? Thanks again MCR. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe I won't feel so alone and pathetic and weak. Maybe I will feel like I have a chance of surviving. I don't know. I didn't even want to face today. It's like I'm recovering from an illness. That illness would be severe depression. I want to be free. I'll be on a lot more now. It's been two years.

Sincerely,
Psychotic Taco