This is my first day back when I actually have to spend the whole day here and every lesson has my ex-best friend in.
Also had a bit of an arguement with my mum this morning and this is how it went:
-I come out the bathroom wearing a poncho-
mum: did you where that to bed?
me: no.
mum: it was just a question I seem to be annoying everyone today i better just shut up and not say anything to anyone (more muttering as she walks downstairs)
I was thinking what the fuck? So I'm so frustrated I slam my bedroom door then she walks to her bedroom and slams her bedroom door.
I can only assume that my tone of voice set her off and my shocked face when she said something to me (nobody normally talks to me until I'm dressed because then they know I'm awake)
So my journey to school was just me thinking about how evrything is my fault and it was 45 minute walk. I have not talked to anyone - I'm just silent and thats how I plan to stay all day.
I mean in biology it wasn't like my ex-best friend was making snide comments about me or anything.
Today is actually shit the only good thing is that I've found out that you can access this website. School computers are actually so slow I may shoot it.
Death seems to be on my mind a lot these days...
