at some point it's just unbearable,,

u're probably sleeping or at school or idk,,

but i just wanna tell you,,
right now i have this sorta dizzyness i don't even know why,,
and suddenly i feel really numb,,
and it's just.. my life seems really unbearable at this point,,
i really want to cheer myself up and do positive things but it's somehow really fuckin hard..
or i want to cry and scream so fuckin loud,,
but i just couldn't do it..
i have a tendency to get depressed easily,,i born with it.,,
and those feeling seems closer and closer..
it freaks me out.
at some moment suddenly i was shutting myself down and sleep and completely don't remember of why or when i fell asleep..
and it's even happen right after i took my coffee..

i can't feel a thing guys,,
i should mad or sad or cry or rant,,,
but i just couldn't and that is a bad signs if i may say,,

and through every page i wrote in my blog,,
i need you all to know that this is the only thing i can do to keep myself sane,,
i hope you all understand,,
I'm not trying to seek attention,,this is what i feel and if it's just unbearable anymore,,
this blog is the safest way..

thank u for reading guys...

much love