The big 'D'

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The big 'D'

I have not been myself recently. I'm usually able to provide support to some of your blogs.
I hit a wall of depression a couple of weeks ago, I have not hit that wall for years and it came like a bolt out of the blue. I was absolutely fine then I just felt this cloud looming over me, I randomly start crying, I hate being me at the moment. I can't shift it.
I have visited my GP, he offered me anti depressants and sleeping pills (I am only getting about 3-4 hrs sleep per night). I have refused them as it will not help the problem only mask it. I am going to go to a psychiatrist and speak to them about it.
I feel restless, sad, useless, trapped and hopeless. Thankfully I do not feel suicidal and do not want to self harm.
I can and will be able to pull myself out of this, I have before and I will again. I just wanted to let you know that i can do this and you can do this too. I just have to find the strength to pull myself up again.
I re-read Gerard's words of inspiration and Frank's humour on his site and of course MCR's songs to bring me through this.
See you on the other side of this.
Xx