Guys, I have a problem and I wanted you to know.

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Guys, I have a problem and I wanted you to know.

TRIGGER WARNING FOR BORDERLINE EATING DISORDER

So.. I have anorexia, I think. I'm not sure. I'm absolutely terrified of putting weight on. My self-esteem concerning body image has dropped like a stone over the past month and so my appetite just... went out the window. Then I started thinking, hmm, I should eat. But I just couldn't. I took one look at my lunch and the will to eat just left me feeling ever so slightly sick. Afterwards I'd get hungry again, and snack on something like a cereal bar, and I'd force myself to eat dinner. That's the only thing I eat all day. And I mean.. it comes and goes. I don't think I'm hurting myself? I do eat, and I move about as much as a sloth so that energy isn't spent immediately. But I can't carry on like this; it might get worse, you know? The problem is that I don't trust the school nurse, Tina, or Suzy, to not tell my mum. She doesn't have to know. I just.. wanted to tell you guys.