If this was an act then I'd fucking choose to act happy!

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If this was an act then I'd fucking choose to act happy!

Rant:

Music is the only reason I'm still alive and you're a fool to think that taking the one thing I care about away from me will make things any better!

Maybe I am bitter, maybe I am the weak cowardly bitch everyone seems to think I am. But I'm not selfish cause unlike some people I don't have my head stuck so far up my ass that I don't bother to help people when they practically beg for it. I'm fucking sorry but who in the right mind act's like this purposely? If I could chose to be happy then I fucking would! And maybe I don't tell anyone anything cause I get yelled at and judged the second I open my mouth so what the fuck is gonna happen if I do? Maybe I'd have a little more faith in people if they didn't stab me in the back every time I think I can trust them. You know if you don't understand at least try and don't judge me or listen! And if you really are so "concerned" how about a hug and a "hey it's gonna be okay" not "you selfish mean bitch" or "don't do anything retarded!" or act like I'm fucking invisible cause that sure as hell makes a person fell so much fucking better! And what hurts the most is that the last time I trusted someone they told everyone about the one thing that I never wanted anyone to know about cause that's what made me the cowardly selfish bitch everyone sees me as today.