"Happy Tears"

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"Happy Tears"

Today I got my Junior Cert results and somehow I managed to pass everything! I honestly thought I failed so many subjects but the lowest I got was a C, so I have no idea how I did it but I'm so happy. Most importantly I got an A in English!! I can't believe it. I'm going out for a meal (very classy lol) so it should be fun, but it involves me wearing heels and my feet hurt already! When I got the results I actually burst into tears and everything just went silent and all I heard was "Hey look Aisling's crying!" and I was like " I didn't fail! They're happy tears!!" And my mam keeps telling me that the red lipstick makes me look like I think it's Halloween but I like it.

But here's a picture of me not looking very amused because every fucking time I watch LA Ink my dad feels the need to go on about how "tattoo's are only for guys" when he thinks I don't hear him but the walls are not fucking soundproof!! And it's always when I'm looking forward to something and he wants to ruin it. Like WTF!? It's my body and my life so leave me do what I want with it. I'm sorry I'm not the daughter he wanted but after years of trying to change me you'd think he'd realize that he's wasting his time. Everyone else gave up when they realized that this isn't a phase! I may be young but I know who I am so fucking leave me be myself. Would he rather I dressed like a slut and made him a grandfather before he turned 50? Because that's what all the other girls are doing! I changed who I was before for the longest time because not one single person could accept me for who I was which resulted in me becoming numb and doing some bad fucking thing's to myself because of that. Now that I don't give a shit about what people think and am actually proud of who I am (and it took a lot to get to that point) I'm not going down that road again. No way, been there, done that bought the fucking t-shirt and I'm never going back! Sometime's parents can be worse than the bullies.

And I'm sorry this just went from a happy blog to a ranting one. I'll try to enjoy it.
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